Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Weight loss: 15lbs
Mood: content
So I made it to 15lbs lost now comes the first real struggle - as I have mentioned before this is about the time where I plateau and it drives me off of my path to weight loss. I have adjusted my workout schedule a little in that I have added regular weight training and calisthenics. Before now,I have been doing these two things randomly and in no real attempt to do anything other than satisfy my planned time for exercise. D is helping me with this as he knows a great deal more about weight training than I do and can help me do it all properly.

Motivation has been coming and going lately and I have had true determination for this several times in the past week or so and yet not done anything about it. The weight loss forum I participate in has been helping me in terms of motivation as one of the members there has just hit a major milestone in her journey, one I am trying to reach as well. She started out at about the same weight as I did and her success is giving me hope for my own. I feel very close to the ladies on my weight loss forum and am therefore very proud of her for getting to this great place, I only hope I can follow in her footsteps.

I have been working really hard on keeping my exercise time active and giving myself non-food related rewards for doing it. I skipped my 10lbs lost meal reward that I usually grant myself and instead have opted for a new rewards such as time playing games and purchasing items (despite the fact that I cannot really afford them right now). I do however have one reward meal planned for when I lose 20lbs as long as I lose those 20lbs by (or on) my birthday (March 29th). If I stay on track, I will be able to do this and I will get a massive yummy birthday meal filled with all the food I love. I want to make myself a cheesecake (traditional New York Cherry Cheesecake) and have lots of yummy food like Quesidillas and Mozzarella sticks, maybe some spicy chicken fingers too. I know I won't be able to eat too much of it because my stomach has shrunk considerably and I will have people over helping me devour it all so I am not really afraid of gaining weight from the one meal, but boy do I want it. BUT if I do not lose the 20lbs by my birthday, then no special yummy meal for me. I am really hoping that it acts as a giant motivator for me. Who knows though. It will be hard though because reaching 20lbs lost by March 29th will mean that I have had the largest losing streak yet during this journey. I usually got up and down a pound (or less) every couple of weeks or hit a plateau every once in a while. I am due for both of those things (according to what has happened in the past) so I am going to have to work extra hard to fight them and keep them at bay.

My contract at my current job is almost done and as scary as that is, it should give me more time to exercise and I plan on losing weight as a profession until I get an actual one. Kind of like the people on The Biggest Loser do, just without a professional trainer and with a bit more down-time for real life activities.

Hopefully my new found motivation and the loss of my day-time activities will give me more reason and hope to lose this weight and will enable me to get through this expected plateau and sail to my birthday dinner.